Nothing Special

I have nothing really to post today so I thought I would update you all on my count down of events coming up...

90 Days until Memorial Weekend (the official start of lake season, of course). I'm sooooooo ready!

118 Days until we leave for Mexico!!!!

141 Days until my 10 year High School Reunion.

Ok, so my diet was offically kicked off on a good start this week. I kind of got side tracked the last 2 weeks because of the ski trip, but now I'm going strong. I'm not really on a diet exactly, I guess I'm just keeping my calories under a specific number every day. I've been doing good with it too, but my main problem is that I just need to get to the gym. I need to try to at least walk or run every day. But what makes it hard is having to go through this IUI stuff! I'm afraid to run or push it during certain times of the month because of the procedure and I'm not really clear on when I have the OK to do certain things. I'm too afraid that the pregnancy won't take because I ran too much one day. I know that people run and get pregnant all the time, but you never know! So having to skip certain times of the month throws me off and gets me out of the mood to keep it going. So my running is off and on. And I guess that's better than nothing!

Also, I'm sure you've noticed that I haven't really mentioned the P90x lately either! Ha! Well, we got off track on that the last 2 weeks too and we need to start it all over again. Hopefully this weekend will be a good time to start. David blames me for us not doing it every night, but I don't understand why because I don't see him getting up and putting the DVD in...

We're Back!

We made it back from the ski trip in one piece. We both came back sick, but we're back. I started getting sick on Wednesday night and it still hasn't completely gone away. My congestion is better but my right ear has been clogged up since Saturday! I'm taking Mucinex D hoping it will clear up soon so I can hear again!

We had a lot of fun. We skied 4 full days and 1 night. So that's a LOT of skiing and by Friday, we'd had enough and called it a day early in the afternoon. I took over 200 pictures with my new camera and about 100 with my old digital point and shoot camera. I didn't feel comfortable taking my new camera out on the mountain with me while I was skiing, so I just used my old one during the day. Even though I took that many pictures, I had to go through and delete a bunch of them because they didn't really turn out very good. I'm still trying to get used to what settings I need to use when. I want to thank everyone on the ski trip for putting up with me taking tons of pictures of them over the week. I need the practice and everyone was pretty much a good sport about it.
I wish I could post all of the pictures, but that would take FOREVER to download and it would take up too much space on my blog! Maybe I'll make a slide show sometime later on and post it on my blog somewhere. But for now...here are a few pictures...

This is the view from our condo.

Neely & Amy

Chip & Mandi

Jeremy & Rachel

Clifton

Me & David

And now...on to another topic...
I started my next cycle while we were on the ski trip. So I called the doctor and set up an appointment for yesterday morning. This appointment was for an ultrasound to make sure the cyst was gone. If it was gone, we could start the next round of IUI. But if it was still there, we were going to have to do something to remove it and I didn't want to find out what that was! So we got some good news...the cyst is gone!!! She said that everything looks perfect and my right ovary already showed some follicles waiting to go! Yeah!!! So I started on my Clomid last night and I take it through Friday. Then I'll go back for another ultrasound on Monday, March 1st, to check my follicles and to find out when I need to take my trigger shot. But more than likely I will take the shot Monday night and then we'll be back in on Wednesday, March 3rd, for the insemination.

I'm really positive and excited about this month so maybe that will help a little. Who knows what works and what doesn't, but at least we are doing everything we can about it right now.
I don't think I've mentioned this on here yet or not, but I've started reading a book called "Conquering Infertility". I know, it sounds so dramatic, doesn't it? But it has actually been a big help to me. Every word in it is describing exactly what I have felt over the past 2 years. It explains the jealousy feeling towards others, and the feelings of failure and frustration, and being able to control everything but this one huge thing. It tells you how to start dealing with all of these feelings. There are tons of different options, like meditation (I know it sounds funny, but it's just like a breathing technique that helps you calm down when you start getting anxiety about something). It talks about finding a hobby (this explains my need to start scrap booking, soon, I just don't' know where to start!). It talks about doing something nice for yourself on a daily basis. It also teaches you how to look at the good side of everything instead of just thinking negatively all the time, and appreciating the things you already have. This book makes me feel like I'm not alone in this and it's helped me communicate my feelings about all of this better with David. And it's also helped me understand a little of how he's feeling too, because I just assumed he's not upset about any of this because he never shows it. But one of us has to be strong, because if we were both like I am, we would just fall apart and would have to be committed to a looney bin! I now understand that he is upset when I'm upset. And he hates that I have to go through everything that I do (the doctor's appointments, the medicine, the poking and prodding). He is more relaxed about it though because he is confident that we will have a baby one day. I really hope he's right...

So wish us luck this month!!!!!!!!

Going Skiing!

We're sitting here waiting for Chip and Mandi to come pick us up to go to the airport to go to Colorado!!! I'm so excited! We took the dogs to the puppy hotel this morning and i really hope they do ok. Brutus loves it there and just plays the entire time. But he also spends most of his time torturing Peanut. He bugs Peanut like he does at home but he does it more aggressively because we aren't there to stop it and it's just like when kids go to day care, how they act completely different when their parents aren't around. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Peanut holds his own!

So I won't be posting the rest of the week while I'm gone. But I hope to have tons of pictures (from my new camera) when I get back.

New Camera

I've had a lot of time this weekend to play with my camera. The only problem is that I'm running out of subjects for my pictures. I've taken over 100 pictures of Peanut and Brutus and I think they're sick of having a camera in their face.

Peanut has always been my little model. He just sits there and looks at me like he's posing. So I always get tons of pictures of him. These are a few of my favorites from the weekend...

OhMyGosh! OhMyGosh! OhMyGosh!

Last night David came home and told me that he wanted to give me my Valentine's gift early because he said he "wasn't sure if I would be able to get it on Sunday". I wasn't sure what this meant and I was a little surprised because we said that we weren't really doing big gifts because of the ski trip. So I asked him why...was it coming in the mail or something? And then jokingly, I said "or is it at Best Buy?!" And to my shock...he said yes, it is!!!! OhMyGosh!!!

So, yep, you guessed it...one of my items from my "Imaginary Wish List", from my post earlier this week, has actually been fulfilled!!!! David got me my camera for Valentine's Day!

I haven't got to play with it yet because when we got home from Best Buy, I had to charge the battery and then it was time to go to bed. So I brought it to work with me today to play with at lunch and I'm going to mess with it all weekend! He wanted me to have it for our ski trip. Isn't he the sweetest!

So all I can say to him is...Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

I love you, Hubby!!!!!

Unbelievable!

This "man" has gotten pregnant 3 times! This makes me so frustrated!! And have you heard how "he's" getting pregnant?!?! "He" orders the sperm from somewhere (I can't remember where it comes from, maybe a friend or something), and then puts it in the refrigerator until "he's" ovulating. Then "he" takes a turkey baster thing and shoots it up there himself (or "his" wife does it). Wow! I can't beleive it's that simple. Unbelievable!


I know I'm not the only infertile woman out there that is pissed off about this!


He's A Breeder! The (First) Pregnant Man Knocked Up With Baby #3!!!
Thomas Beatie couldn't be one-upped by yet another transgendered pregnant man!
Beatie, who has given birth to two kids in the past two years, is reportedly preggers for the third time!!

Imaginary wish list

I have nothing to really post today so I thought I would do something silly. And I'm extremely bored at work today.

With Valentine's Day coming up this weekend...I thought I would make a wish list...just in case David is wondering what he should get me...:) I've been shopping online all morning, and this is what I've come up with:

1. $2,000 cash to go shopping for new clothes, tons of accessories (because I'm really lacking in this department), and lots of shoes (also lacking here). I'm not sure if $2,000 would be a sufficient amount though because I need enough to replace everything I have in my closet and start over. I need this deparately!!!! I'm so sick of every article of clothing I have. I need more style! So maybe we should bump that amount up to $5,000, just to safely cover everything.

2. A Nikon D5000 DSLR Camera, editing software, a cute camera strap, and a fashionale camera bag to carry it in. In addition to this, I would need a room in my house totally dedicated to making scrapbooks with all of the pictures I'm going to be taking with this new camera. It needs to be fully stocked with a nice work station, plenty of scrapbooking supplies and tools, a flat screen tv so I don't miss my favorite shows while I'm being crafty, and it should be painted pink!

3. A swimming pool with a hot tub attached to it and pretty landscaping all around it. I would also need great patio furniture to be able to sit around the pool and enjoy the sun.

What?!?! A girl can wish, right? I told you in my post yesterday that daydreaming makes me happy!

Thoughts for the day

Well, first...I THOUGHT I started my next cycle yesterday, even though it was only CD# 15, which is really weird. I called the doctor and she told me that it's something called a "break through period" and it's cause by the birth control they put me on. And it's just my lining being released, not an unfertilized egg. I should have my real period in about a week and a half to 2 weeks from now and then I will have my ultrasound to check to see if the cyst is gone. Fingers crossed!

Next...I did our taxes last night and it only reminded me why I HATE doing taxes! I know, I know...I'm an accountant and I'm supposed to be good at it. But there are all different kinds of accountants and I'm the kind that hates doing taxes! That's why I never cared anything about getting my CPA. I hated my taxes classes and barely made it through them. But I thought, "our return should be simple enough" and turbo tax walks you right trough everything. But it took me 3 1/2 hours!!!! I think it took so long because turbo tax asks about 350 questions to guide you through the whole thing and try to get you the biggest refund possible. The main thing I hate about doing our taxes is that I'm afraid I missed something that a tax professional would have found and gotten us a bigger return. But it's too late now because everything is already filed and done! So I'm not thinking about it again for a year!

Finally...I feel like I've been really negative about a lot of stuff recently. I have felt down and haven't been able to see the positive things in my life lately. So I'm going to take this time to list a few things that truly make me smile...

1. When David REALLY laughs. When we thinks something is really funny, he crinkles his nose up and smiles so big as he's laughing.
2. Coming home and having Peanut and Brutus run to me like they haven't seen me in a year. It's my favorite part of the day and I think it's theirs too.
3. Sleeping in on Saturdays and not having a thing to do all day. The kind of days that I don't even get out of my pajamas or put my contacts in.
4. Going on vacation - anywhere to get out of work!
5. A whole summer full of lake trips.
6. A good hair day (and having people notice!)
7. Putting together an outfit that you're proud to walk around in.
8. Sitting down on the couch, curling up in my electric blanket, knowing my DVR is full and ready to be watched.
9. Cookies
10. When my favorite song comes on the radio.
11. Fun get together with friends.
12. Pictures
13. The feeling of being fit after I leave the gym (but I have to make it to the gym first, ha!)
14. A really good chicken ceasar salad
15. Getting into bed right after I've just cleaned the sheets.
16. Bubble baths
17. Reality TV
18. Shopping
19. Lunch with friends.
20. Watching Brutus play in the snow.
21. A clean house.
22. Going on walks with David.
23. Daydreaming about the future...

I hope you all have a positive day!

Busy weekend...

I guess I should just say that we had a busy Saturday.

We didn't do much Friday night, just stayed around the house. But then Saturday morning we got up and went to Walker's birthday party (our nephew).

This is our other nephew, Jagger...

Then we had to leave there to go meet my parents at the Tulsa Boat Show.

That night we went to the Hardrock Casino. It was sooooo crowded and we saw tons of people we knew. I really wasn't too into it because I was just sticking to my waters and a Red Bull or two. But I think my parents had fun, despite loosing their money!

Look at Lesa in the background! So funny!

Then we ended the night with a late night trip to IHOP, of course. The New York Cheesecake pancakes are sooooo good! I'm really going to have to kick it back into gear this week with the workout!

Oh, and my dad had just purchased something I have been wanting so badly the night before they came up. The exact same camera I'm wanting!!! So not fair! But I did get to play with it a little and it just made me want it more. I'm really wanting to learn all about how to take good pictures with it and then how to edit them.

And now, I'm just trying to make it through the week...patiently waiting to leave for our ski trip next Monday. I can't wait!!!!!!!!!

Small arts & crafts project

Ever since we moved in to our new house, I have struggled with how to deal with the space above our cabinets in the kitchen. There is so much space there and it looks so empty all the time and I just sit there and stare at it when I'm eating. I'm just trying to do a little at a time so I don't just clutter it up with fillers and make it look stupid. And I'm trying to make it look cute, but I feel like I hate everything I put up there! Anyway, the latest thing I put up there...I made myself. I just got some letters from Hobby Lobby and painted them black.



Then I put them up on the wall above the cabinets in a corner of the kitchen...



I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. And David made a really funny face when he looked at it for the first time.

Major headache

I haven't posted in a few days because I really haven't had time and nothing has really been going on. We've gone to the gym every day this week and we don't get home until after 7:00. Then it's dinner time, shower time, sit down and watch about 30 minutes of tv and then off to bed because I can't keep my eyes open anymore.

I've had a pretty intense headache for the past few days and I can't seem to get rid of it. All sounds are making it worse. I couldn't listen to the tv last night without my head throbbing. I couldn't listen to my favorite songs in the car on my way to work this morning because the beats made my head throb along. And this morning at work I can't listen to my favorite morning talk show on the radio because their voices are so annoying to me right now.

I know this all must be caused by the new stronger birth control the doctor gave me. I really hope that cyst goes away this month because I don't want to have to go through this again for a while!

Everyone better stay out of my way today!!!!